Monday, July 31, 2006

Birthday WishList

Updated as of: April 27, 2007

New office stuff:
BIG harddrive to store stuff
Fancy monitor so I don't destroy my eyes in grad school
Black and White Printer

Subscriptions:
Foreign Affairs
National Geographic
The New Yorker (thanks kimberley!)

Phone Pda

Bike to put put around college campuses (nothing too fancy, but something that fits me)

Books (go to www.powells.com and then enter my name for my full listing of books)

The perfect reading chair

The perfect leather duster jacket

Kitchen things:
Glass and metal bowls/platters. Kasherable things to serve the masses
Espresso Maker (either the big fancy kind, or just the small French percolator will do)
Moroccan style tea set
Hot plate for shabbat
Water boiler for shabbat

Camping Supplies:
Small portable stove
Tent (2 or 4 person, light)
Light eating utensils
A really sweet compass (hey, I'm gonna be a geographer!)
Swiss Army knife

New daypack backpack and/or lumbarpack

Plants, seeds

Games:
Settlers of Catan
Super Fancy Deluxe Scrabble (I have a regular board... This is for the very vain part of my personality)
Taboo

Risk

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Round-up

  • 5 Shot at the Jewish Federation in Seattle. Sometimes it hurts that much more when it is around your corner. Refuah Shlema to those hurt. My heart aches to the family of the woman who was killed.
  • NYT reports on the other casualty of the war in Lebanon - the environment. This is such a devastating picture of how war ravages a land. This little section I found particularly ironic:

Much of the budget for environmental protection and development has been sacrificed for relief work, he said. The oil spills, he said, will eventually be cleaned up and solid waste will be collected and disposed of when the war is over, but the forests are irreplaceable.

“In the end, who cares if a forest is on fire when there are people dying, others are being displaced and their houses or factories are on fire?” he said.

Water pollution has become an issue, too, said Karim el-Jisr, senior associate at Ecodit, a nongovernmental environmental association. Wastewater and freshwater canals are very close together and the many bombs that have hit roads and other infrastructure have damaged them. As a result, Mr. Jisr said, wastewater is contaminating the freshwater supply, especially in rural areas, causing further environmental degradation.

So, money is being diverted from environmental protection to relief work... in the meantime, the water is being polluted which will make relief work significantly more difficult. It gets pretty hard to distinguish environmental protection from relief work, eh?

Hey, I'd have a hard time making the call, but it is devastating nonetheless.

Yikes, what is it all coming to?

Friday, July 28, 2006

DeNile Aint Just a River....

You know you are traveling deep and long down the river "DeNile" when you decide to empty the dryer and fold the family towels and sheets instead of continuing packing.

Oy, there is still so much to do and I'm outta here on Sunday morning. I have already packed my main clothing suitcase. I am 2/3 of the way toward finishing my winter stuff/wedding suitcase and I haven't even begun packing my "other stuff" suitcase. I've been weighing these badboys as they go so that I don't exceed the 50 lbs limit.

I have to keep repeating, "The goal is not to take as much stuff as possible, it is to take all the right things." Grrrrr... why is this so hard?

I promise, I will stop complaining soon. For real....

All Those Devices....

I'm an electronic toy freak. I don't know when it started; I'm positively sure that I was on the verge of being a computer-phobe back in college. Maybe it was that relationship with the network administrator that got me hooked... hmmm... anyway. On a regular day, I carry my cell phone (duh!), my palm (which records every last thing I'm up to and even helps me get there) and my ipod (shuffle). Why is it that the two devices that I was counting on to WORK on this trip decided to crap out on me... why I ask of you????!!! The ipod shuffle had been giving me grief for a number of weeks. Of course, I'm just weeks out of warranty. I finally get the darn thing to the shop and they tell me, "Yep, lost cause. Fixing it will be more expensive than a new one. You can purchase it for $89.95." Grrrr... no thank you. I will be taking my handheld AM/FM radio to Israel. Don't the cosmic stars know that I'm unemployed?

And my dear lovely palm. Why, oh why did you have to go? It actually does turn on, sometimes, when I sort of bend it, contort really. Not a good thing. And often it doesn't turn on at all. I bought the darn thing when my last one was stolen out of the front seat of my Honda back in '04. But I am debating replacing it. I've been lost the last 24 hours without it. And I just purchased one of those neato keyboards to go with it. So, if anyone wants to contribute to the cause, please be my guest.

Thank God my phone is still working, (*knock, knock*). Too bad I'm going to deactivate the thing in a few weeks.

I'm trying... desperately.... to look at it like this: if these are the worst things that are to befall me on my trip, well I'll be as happy as a shoelace on Tuesday.... or something. But if this is the beginning of a pattern of things going wrong, wrong, wrong... I'm screwed!

Maybe it is God telling me that I need to simplify my life, rely less on technology and more on the sophisticated brain between my ears. Nah, I don't think so.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Judgement Day

So, I try to write something nuanced, and I completely biff it. Woops. See what a friend wrote to me last night. PS - people, you can comment on the blog. That's what it's for....
A little surprised that you are seriously bothered by the friends who are questioning your decision to proceed to Israel, but I agree that it's a tough situation. Hopefully, as suggested by the IDF, things will cool down in a couple of weeks, but of couse, no way to know for sure, and that's very close to your flight date.
Well, I say, "Amen, to things calming down, and the sooner the better." I never meant to imply that I was angry with my friends who express legitimate and sweet concern over my decision to go to Israel. No, I didn't mean that. I am so lucky to have folks around me who care whether I make good or bad determinations on account of my own poor risk assessment skills. I've received at least two hilarious messages that go something like, "Um... I remember you were going to Israel... are you there yet? If you are... uh.... I hope you're OK. You'll let me know, right? Actually, I guess I'm not even sure you are using this phone anymore.... OK, bye." They crack me up.

But I am angry and depressed by the whole thing, and in my own head I'm trying to rationalize this plan. So, I'm lashing out at the people around me who are most concerned. Talk about misplaced emotion!! Thanks for pointing it out.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Disturbing Conversation

Leave it to my buddy JM to challenge me...

A little background on JM. We met during orientation for college and have been close ever since. He's about 8 months older than I am and given that he's an only child, he adopted me as his little sister. Additionally, he has given me some important advice in the past few years concerning work and even men. Every once in a while I make a resolution to listen to him more... but it doesn't usually happen. Sorry JM.

He called to ask about whether I was actually planning on moving from one of the most beautiful cities on Earth to a war zone. Well, put in that framework, it does sound a little nutty.

He asked what it would take for me not to go. What about nuclear war? Godforbid, poo poo. What would have to happen that I would change my plans?

Another friend asked whether I'd made a plan B. Yikes. I moved out of my apartment, quit my job, and uprooted my life in preparation for this journey. No, I don't have a backup plan. To the question, I quipped, "Well, the country doesn't have a backup plan." They don't go around saying, "Well, if we lose this one, we can always go to this other place if it doesn't work out." First off, I've learned my lesson about making concrete plans in the first place. But secondly, I think that its important to be in Israel now. When the reserves are called up, how does the rest of the economy move forward with any of its other initiatives? When a country is periodically disrupted to this extent, how does it mature to become a sophisticated nation among nations?

The weird thing is that I've never really thought of myself as such a hardcore Zionist. I don't live in Israel; I have no plans to make my permanent home in Israel. But I want it to exist. I want Israel to survive. I am highly critical of many of the decisions of the Israeli government.

So how does all this impact my decisions today? Well, as of today, I'm going to Israel. I'll keep y'all posted...

Monday, July 24, 2006

Photoessay 1: roadtrippin to PDX

A photoessay of my trip to Portland


I left Berkeley on a blisteringly hot Sunday evening (July 16th) with explicit intentions to hit the Mt. Shasta area by nightfall. Although I didn't actually get behind the wheel until Tuesday night, I was armed with my new snappy distance glasses, just in case.

Myrrh with New Glasses:
A stop at the Black Bear diner delayed our arrival by a bit, but we did witness some fantastic sunset action:



and finally arrived at the Motel 6 in Weed around 11pm. There we were greeted by our first friend of the trip, namely Jose, the Cockroach. Thankfully, he didn't actually greet us in the room, but rather set up camp in the hallway just outside.
Jose, the Cockroach:

The next day, Jeff and I day-hiked Black Butte, a cindercone just outside of Shasta, which had the benefit of long switchbacks allowing us a nearly 360 degree views of the area. Specs: 2.5 miles to summit, 1800" elevation gain. We got incredible views of the Mother Mountain:



At the top of Black Butte, was a greeting by some previous hiker's sense of humor...


We took a slow pace, having a really good time figuring out Jeff's camera. Often, I was looking back at Jeff as he did this...
Or this...





OK, it got a little old after a while. But I'm not very patient.

That night we drove to Ashland (another 2 hours) and lucked into a sweet little motel near the center of town. Our intention had been to stay in Ashland for the next day and check out one of the Oregon Shakespeare Fest plays, but neither grabbed us, so we decided to hang in Ashland in the morning and head northward mid-day. Being the lightweights that we are, one beer at lunch delayed our driving considerably and we busted out the backgammon at a coffee shop for hours while we sobered up.

After a quick jaunt in Eugene for dinner, we went swinging into Portland around midnight. Woohoo!

Sunday, July 23, 2006

"I Left My Heart in San Francisco..."

Top Ten Reasons Why San Francisco Kicks My Ass Back to Brooklyn (no, I have never lived in Brooklyn and yes, that is a good thing).

1 - All the people, you know who you are: DH, JN, NS, JE, RB, AN, LG, RF, JS, MK, MH, LS, RK, HS, JH, ASK, ESK, SE, FB, GF, JJ, ZS, RJ, TK, NG, NK, EJ, JB, NB, DK, SL, EG, LM, DR, TB, DS (and perhaps most: JCL) - I'm sure I forgot some. You have enriched and I expect will continue to enrich, brighten, challenge, teach, and inspire me. Thank you!

2 - Of course, the Mission Minyan! You have taught me about Judaism, group dynamics, what it means to love an organization. You have opened my mind to more ways to connect to the Divine. You have shown me what a diverse group of people who mix intention with devotion can create.

3 - 1237 Broadway - Mostly because of the people who resided there, but also because of the rooftop view, the wonderfully pressurized shower, the lack of parking that encouraged me to sell my car before gas prices went out of control, the futon that was easily moved to accommodate regular shabbat dinners and 17 people for Pesach seder, the kitchen with blue countertops that allowed me to experiment with epicurious recipes. Of course, thanks to craigslist and DS for bringing it all together.

4 - ISDLS and Koret which both paid the bills sufficiently for me to live comfortably and taught me more than I can go into here.

5 - NS's swanky pad that played host to a rockin birthday party for me, delicious, hamish shabbat dinners and of course, the owner, NS, who helped me get through it all.

6 - Beth Sholom YABS - for introducing me to many of my most important people. For cooking shabbat dinner when I just couldn't muster the energy and pushing me long and hard into a theological crisis from which I've grown and matured.

7 - MUNI - for making me wait just long enough so that I opted to walk more often than not. For the #1- California for smelling just vaguely like fish, and being so crowded that hiking up the hills usually seemed quite appealing. For the Cable Cars whose bells rang ever-so-sweetly when I was getting ready for bed and reminding me that a piece of my heart will always be left in SF.

8 - One word - Hagim - From the most revelationary Shavuot of my life, to two Pesach Seders (one that ended with a dance party at 2am in my kitchen, and the other which welcomed Eliyahu at 3am with song and ruach) to Shabbat, Shabbat, and more Shabbat, this year has been filled with the most celebratory holidays in my life. Thanks to all those who sang, davenned, taught, walked, planned, opined, kvetched, leyned, awoke early, stayed up late, baked, sauteed, chopped, seasoned, served and hosted. The food was delicious!

9 - For the International Forum at the World Affairs Council, all-you-can-eat sushi at Nara, Pacific Arabic Resources, Jewish Fashion Conspiracy, Fat Chance Bellydance, the Commonwealth Club, A Well Lighted Place for Books, The Hustler Club, Le Beau (for those in the know), Chinatown produce shopping, overpriced boutiques in Pac Heights, burritos in the Mission, Burmese food in the Richmond, vegetarian options!!, and of course, Peets (for providing the juice of life).

10 - For Mt. Tam and Muir Woods (where my Saba loved to take us as kids), the bison in GG Park, the Presidio, Big Basin, Berkeley Rose Garden, Monterey and all the rest that I can't think of now.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Israel.... Oy Vey.

I am now at a point where I am afraid to read the news.... Each moment seems to speak of more horrors in the Middle East and Israel. *Sigh*

Friday, July 14, 2006

How do I feel now?

A number of friends have asked me how I feel about the dramatic escalation in violence that has happened in the last few weeks (and last few days/hours). To be perfectly honest, I have this sense of detachment relating to it. This, of course, relates to my general feelings of denial about leaving and transition - but that's another story. I feel like things seem to change so rapidly in Israel that even though I'm going next month - Aug 13 - the whole matzav could be very different. And if I have learned anything about Israel in the last few years, it is that I am still not very good at predicting the future.

I realized how lousy I was at soothsaying when the intifada first started. I was living on Kibbutz Sha'ar Ha'amakim when Sharon made his ascension to the Mount. I didn't get it; I really didn't understand anything about the anger seething just below the surface. The violence got worse and worse, hahadashot showed the lynching over and over again, and we heard stories about stonings on the streets. Very. Bad. And the other volunteers were more confused than I was. They looked to me, the Jew, the one who spoke Hebrew, for answers. How long would it last? How would we be affected? Would they close the airport? My answer to them: The international community will never stand for this. There will be peacekeeping troops. This is only a matter of days and possibly weeks.

And I was WRONG, DEAD WRONG. I lied to them. The international community didn't care, the airport was closed briefly, we were stranded on the kibbutz for some of the time.

So, I'm detached, and wary of my own prediction skills. And then every once in a while something makes it real. This time, the something hits close to home. I have cousins that live in Beit Shemesh. They are a lovely modern Orthodox family and their oldest son, Yonatan, begins his stint in the Israeli Air Force - this Sunday. He's a really lovely kid. Good looking, smart, sophisticated, kind, mature. The last time I saw him was 6 years ago, and we aren't close, but he's family. Good. Freakin. Timing.

Someone asked what my contingency plan is if the violence continues to escalate. Well, sorry Eema, I don't have one and don't plan on making one. I guess I could conjure a situation where I wouldn't go - oh yes, my imagination is creative - but I don't honestly think that will happen. So, I'm taking each day in stride. I'm trying to ease into the Israeli attitude - ma sh'yihiyeh, yihiyeh - What will be, will be!

Monday, July 10, 2006

To the Power of Three

Similar to last week, I hit up Stern Grove again today, however this time I was treated to VIP passes. This translated into boxed lunches and lots of wine... mmmm.... good. Also, it was a marvelous show of SF Symphony ... I was looking forward to my first showing with MTT conducting, but alas, he was nowhere to be seen. I was delightfully surprised to listen to these guys. They kicked ass... no other way to describe it!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Goals for Israel, Part 2

If you want to start at the beginning, you can read goals 1.

This one may seem the most obvious, but it worth articulating anyway. Language... I believe in the power of language and translation. Actually, I owe it all to Nightline's Ted Koppel. (My dad loves him and has stayed up to watch his show for as long as I can remember... oh yea... started broadcasting in 1980... about the time I was born...)

Anyway, Koppel was reporting from Sarajevo or somewhere near there around the time of the NATO operation to stop the Serbian ethnic cleansing. He was talking to an old man, whose house had been destroyed by shelling of some kind. I can't remember the details of the story, but I seem to remember that the old man spoke Bosnian. A neighbor boy, who was also interviewed, translated the old man's story from Bosnian into German. Ted Koppel did his own German to English translation on-the-fly and we, the American viewing public, were able to hear this old man's story. Without each part of the puzzle being at the right place at the right time, the story might have been lost forever or at least wouldn't have received the kind of publicity that comes with Nightline reporting.

Goal 2: Become comfortably conversational in Hebrew and Arabic.

While I have a background in both languages, I am not comfortably conversational in either. I understand more than I can speak, and I speak more than I can read and write... but hopefully by the end of this year, I will be better at all of those things.

Love and Darkness

Quotes from "A Tale of Love and Darkness" by Amos Oz (Ahava v'Choshech?)

Naturally we knew how hard it was in the Land: we knew it was very hot, a wilderness, and we knew there was unemployment, and we knew there were poor Arabs in the villages, but we could see on the big wall map in our classroom that there weren't many Arabs, there may have been half a million alltogether then, certainly less than one million, and there was total certainty that there would be enough room for another few million Jews, and that maybe the Arabs were just being stirred up to hate us, like the simple people in Poland, but surely we'd be able to explain to them and persuade them that our return to the Land represented only a blessing for them, economically, medically, culturally, in every way. We thought that soon, in a few years, the Jews would be the majority here, and as soon as that happened, we'd show the whole world how to treat a minority - our own minority, the Arabs. We, who had always been an oppressed minority, would treat our Arab minority justly, fairly, generously, we would share our homeland with them, share everything with them, we would certainly never turn them into cats. It was a pretty dream.
p. 192


I will comment further on this next week!! Yipee!!

Monday, July 03, 2006

Plans Shaping Up for the Voyage

Am I the only person for whom the word "voyage" makes them conjure a trip of mythic proportions? Well, I'm hoping this Israel jaunt will have some of those characteristics.

One of the first concrete and exciting things that happened in preparation for the voyage (yes, I hear James Early Jones say the word in my head) is that I got an internship with the Arava Institute. They are one of these truly neato organizations that bring people together to actually get something done that benefits everyone, namely environmental protection. They are part research thinktank, part graduate school, and part peace organization and I may have the opportunity to be part of all those parts (confused yet? me too).

Their director emailed me this today:

The research you will most likley be working on will be on regional water management issues with Jordan and the Palestinian Authority as well as in countries in Europe. We are now developing projects with UNESCO that you will most likley help us on. The other research we are doing is on environmental and health impacts in the Bedouin sector where we will have you help us in developing projects.



So there you have it folks... all the information I have about my *hopefully* upcoming work at Arava. Ensha'allah, my supervisors at Dorot won't have an issue with this plan.

A Little Beat From Down South

Yesterday, I went to Stern Grove, one of the many coolio free park concerty-type things going on in this fabulous city. Good lord, I'm going to miss it here. Anyway, I saw some fun zydeco music by the Geno Delafose & French Rockin’ Boogie band. Call me crazy, but am I the only one who thinks that every zydeco song I've ever heard sounds very nearly the same?? The same or not, it was fun and inspired me to keep dancin. The other band was the Rebirth Brass Band - equally fun and dancingly inspired (hm?).

Lessons for the day:
  • Yes, you can get sunburned when it is overcast. I have the lines to prove it.
  • No, you do not need to bring the kitchen sink for a concert picnic because inevitably you will have to bring it all home. What a pain in the butt!
  • Public transit is often easier and even quicker than driving. Yesiree....

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Good and Nauseus

After 24 hours of glasses wearing, I'm good and nauseus and even sporting a big of a headache. Cool, huh? I'm wondering if I never needed those darned glasses after all, hmmmm?

This shabbas was fun and relaxing. Services at MM, potluck dinner replete with comic acting out of my childhood experiences. Sat morning at NS and a walk and nap in the afternoon. Not bad, not bad at all.